Date : Wednesday, January 6
Time : 4:39 PM
Title : I never learnt my lesson, that' why i'm still in misery.

After so many times of pain, tears & craziness.
I still never learnt.
I need to learnt to put it down & never pick it up again.
Walk away & never walk back anymore.


Resulting me lying in bed looking like this, can't sleep & can't wake up.
I can't sleep because of you, i used to fall into deep sleep because of you too.
Imym, but I need to learn my lesson.

- CRM was awesomely boring ytd? Where's my uncle leong ):
- Met up with my blonde chubis! As blondie came to RP to study.
- Met colin & cosine for dinner! Colin's itouch has interesting tarots reading that absolutely love!
- Had a dramatic sleepless night resulting to swollen eyes & an ache in my chest.
- Couldn't sleep, massive headache! Skipped marketing class today.
- Toss in turn in bed till 1pm. Still lethargic & fucking tired.
- Its 5:30pm, i'm still fucking tired & i have piano lesson at 7:15pm.



My E26B's as well as E54R lovables!


Blondie's pouty lips, my blue nails & shah's droopy eyes.
1, 2, 3! not only you & me


Sakinah said: "Smile with your teeth! it'll be more visible in popart!"
True enough! >.<
Weirdly..


I srsly thank god they still love me ):
I love them so much, and dearly too


Shah not ready!


Kelly not ready!


Both awesomely ready!
But i freaking look like a fishball -.-

thanks to those who still loves me, & balls to those who walked away in my life.
& lastly, you're such a fuckface, backstabbing pretentious bitch! (:
Stop trying to know everything fucking thing (in fact acting that you know every fucking thing, and every fucking one)
I've got what you got too. A attitude, i'm nice enough to put up with yours.
I'm too nice.
Putting up with your nonsense, being the one always there.
This is what i get in return? Ignorance and fucked up?
Maybe you guys fit each other the best, both big fuckers & heartless jerks.

that's all for today(: I'll smile w/o botox felicia & davis! thanks i just need to unwind for a few more days! Thanks lovelies. Qhui baby, i'm okay i'm okay...

Date : Monday, January 4
Time : 7:07 PM
Title : XoXo = Hugs & Kisses. Where are mine?

Your used to be love & kindness pouring all over me.
Suddenly it was all gone? & i was left silence & cold.
I've no idea why this happened, but everything just ended like a blackout.
It just got dark all of a sudden leaving me lost & shocked.
No more XoXo with cares & concern
But i'm in so deep,
you know i'm such a fool for you. you got me wrapped around your finger.
Do you have to let it linger? & left me cold to shiver?
I hate the rain, & i hate darkness.

Gosh! First day of sch just ended!
It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.
Was real early to class today all along thinking that its 9:15am lesson which in fact today its the 9:45am lesson.
Reached class at 9am! gosh. super early.
Packed for JIVEFIESTA pre-sales!
We sold all our icegems & all 125 pieces of muffins!
HOW AWESOME IS THAT? ^^
Totally love it alright.
Pre-sales will go on for another two days, which makes the other two days really anicipating for all of us.
Seeing my classmates put in the effort to go door to door to sell is a pleasing sight, TOTALLY LOVE!


In class real early to pack icegems!


Ice gems!


Chocolate muffins!


Beloved(:


I've pastel blue nails & a gold ribbon on my head!
I'm weird, but love me like this.
I can't change.


Bows are my new loved!


I've got an armani candle?

我的心有一道牆.

Date : Saturday, January 2
Time : 2:32 PM
Title : Happy New Year 2010!

I doubt myself it'd be like this. & i know what's happening now isn't the truth. Its temporary happiness.


I want love, hugs, kisses, flowers, candles & company. Not casuality & careless sex idiot.


Living in Sin is a new thing. All the texting & drinking and having lotsa fun(:
A temporary life of fun i'm having now(:
Shooting up high! So loved

& on 1/1/09, i had something i've been craving for since forever.
I had coldrock icecream!
Honeycomb & Ferrero awesomeness after not sleeping since new year's eve and meeting real early for band comm meeting on 1/1/09 at jon's place.



Hibernated till now, awesome sleep!


Someone i've been missing all along till now, at this very moment.
I still can't breathe and my heart skipped that beat while it aches and misses.

Date : Wednesday, December 30
Time : 7:44 PM
Title : SMD -.-

So much drama, all i can do is shut up!

Why can't everyone just be happy leaving out dramas in life?
When you're not truthful, and don't speak up, there ought to be drama.
If you're angry say it. If you're sad, show it. If you're jealous, make it a point that knows you are.
Obviously not being unreasonably nonsensical. Don't beat around the bush.

I srsly know i should shut up about everything in the world.
I shldn't make any comment, say anything or comment even.
It was a joke.. as always a joke.
But i don't want to be taken as a joke.
If grudges are still there for you, i mark your words. so mark mine too.
I still wanna be a friend, if you still want me as one.

Why is my life filled with ultimate dramas that comes all in one go? -.-
I'm so tired, i'm sick but i can't seem to rest.
Blocked nose, sore throat and constantly coughing isn't doing any good for me.
Teary eyes.. dizzy spells..
I'm really tired ): Someone pls let me your shoulder, i just wanna sleep soundly for once recently.

2009 is gonna be over, 2010 is coming.
I really hoped it'd be a better year for me & everyone i loved.
I spent 19years of life single till now i'm still single but i'm loving it.
My friends are awesome-ness people & i've lots of fun and love too!
So what's those new year's resolutions i should have? (:
Let me think about ...

ttyl, blog again.

Date : Thursday, December 24
Time : 4:44 PM
Title : Christmas

Merry Little Christmas Eve!

Under the mistletoes,

Date : Tuesday, December 22
Time : 2:43 AM
Title : Counting down for christmas!

Christmas is coming, right next to me.
In less than 3days time.
Somehow, this christmas isn't very special anyways.
I don't have mistletoe kisses, white christmas & magical moments.
All i have is christmas carols, presents & logcakes. ):
I'm dreaming of a white~ christmas! & all i want for christmas is you adding on to please have snow, and mistletoes. & presents on the tree.

I successfully survived the 2D1N at Ubin!
Gosh, i can't even complete my sec sch camp, i went through a Ubin camp!
With trekking and disgusting place -.-
Srsly the place.. sucks.
Mosquito, bees, ants, real big ants, snake! and all sorts of shitty weird things.
I feel good to be back home!
Life sucks when there's camp because camp sucks.
I'm not a camp person ): Too used to the luxury of a decent toilet!



Srsly forgotten when this was taken. But it was at a empty classroom! See that balloon in my hand? Davis made it! for YOU KNOW WHO! ^^ awwww sweet sweet love.


I've someone in my dream always, does it mean the person misses me too? -.-
HOW ABOUT DANIEL HENNEY? hhahas. joking!
If this sentence is true, i'd be utterly happy!


I believe this are all really true, Awesomely!

Time to sleep!
Sweet sweet dreams for the nightmare tmr.
Waking up has always been a nightmare.
I hear nags, whining & fucking irritating shits everyday. when can it stop?
Why can't she for once don't blame it on me.
Sigh, i'm a burden, thankyouverymuch.
God bless the fuck out of you cheebye(:

I can't bear to hear you cry, pls don't.
I'd cry, if you cry.
Don't think, be who you are. & love who you want.

Date : Saturday, December 19
Time : 12:43 AM
Title : Till sunday...

DIEM SOH Ubin Camp, till sunday.
Dread camp, but really hope it'll turn out fun.

The trekking, the kayaking.
Thoughts of it, *DIE*
Kayaking would be real fun, but trekking ):
I'm so gonna hope i get burnt! & tanned (:
And tired myself out so i could sleep right after i hit my bed.



I hoped for such a view at Ubin


Such charming look in bed,


That intimacy that isn't fear but love.


Stretch out, love it when he smile.


Sweet smile with roses & romantic aura

I'd definitely date someone with all this criteria.
& someone as hot as daniel henney or gongyoo!
Dream on kelly dream on! (:

I need someone to call my own, not like you.
Draw that line, cross my heart. Keep your distance, i'm not for you.